Some days I feel like giving up. Everything feels like too much work. It feels as though now that I’ve come this far, I’m not sure I actually want it enough to keep going. But I do…
I hesitated to post this blog. I even hesitated to write it… Why? Because when it first came to mind over a week ago, I thought, ‘I shouldn’t post that. It will undermine my professional image’. But then I realised there was a ‘should’ in that thought and, if you’ve been here before, you know how I feel about the ‘s’ word! So I explored the thought a bit more and got to thinking, ‘what is my professional image anyway?’ The whole reason for starting this business was to allow me to do what I love, and to be more authentically me, all of the time. So, does sharing my truth make me unprofessional? Or more relatable..? I’ll let you decide…
Let’s get real
We all have crappy days (or weeks…) sometimes. Just because I’m doing what I love doesn’t mean I don’t have days when I doubt myself. Days when I wonder whether I’ve done (or am doing!) the right thing. How I respond to these doubts varies depending on several external factors but there is a mantra I have been living by for some time now:
This too shall pass
Good or bad, everything passes. I know that these feelings of doubt will pass. They only ever happen when I allow myself to get caught up in the stories in my head. On these days, I need to get out of my head and connect with people because once I’m back to connecting again, my passion returns. Really connecting with someone’s story gets me fired up about sharing it. This fire is also ignited when I see coaching clients take steps towards the lives they really want and as long as that fire’s burning, I stay connected to my ‘why’. So, when the little demons of self-doubt come out to play, keeping my eyes on the bigger picture banishes them to the periphery until I can barely see them anymore. Besides, what’s the worst that can happen? I’ll fail?
There is no failure. There are only new stories
I started writing a series of children’s books in my 20s. I submitted the first book and a synopsis of the next two and received many rejection slips. I decided I’d failed so I stopped submitting it, put it away in a folder and tried to forget about it. A few years ago, I started writing a novel. The plot was very complicated and I managed to confuse even myself! When I stopped writing it, I quietly stopped talking about it and put it to one side. This time though, I knew I hadn’t failed. I may come back to both of these projects at some point and if I do, it will be with fresh eyes and, mostly likely, a new (or at least updated!) story.
Even though I sometimes feel like giving up, I never will. If you think about it, it’s not really possible to ‘give up’. What I’m doing now might have been the happily ever after at the end of my last story but it’s only the beginning of a new one and I’m sure there will be many more stories to come!
Are you at the beginning of a new story or the end of an old one? Or somewhere in between..? Have you ever felt like giving up? How do you find the motivation to keep moving?